The butterflies in my tummy have lead wings.

Cheer tryouts are tomorrow.
I am so scared that everyone will make it but me.
It is how it works.
I will try so hard, and want it so bad, and then everyone will get a spot but me.
On friday when the lists of who made it go up, my name wont be there.
Hayley's will.
Mine wont.
I'm afraid to even try.
I dont want to have to pretend to be happy for everyone else if I dont make it.